Odd title, I know.
I haven’t brought this up on the blog yet, partly because I wanted to sit with this for a while, but mostly because I have had a backlog of content to catch up on and this post deserved my full attention.
Now, everyone here should be familiar with Bumper…
He’s my boy.
My main squeeze.
The frustrating yet worthwhile light of my life.
We have had some serious ups and downs, but it feels like we are finally clawing our selves out the other side.
Hopefully, you guys also remember Pepper…
She is my first homebred, and the horse of my dreams (if you disregard I was hoping for a bay colt that is).
The journey of finding the right mare, with the TB lines I had always wanted and then putting her to the stallion I had been drooling over for years, getting that first scan with the little embryo and then losing it at the last scan only to end up with a foal ~10 months later.
It was a ride.
Since she arrived I have been in awe of her. Her movement, her temperament, her personality, all of it.
From the moment she hit the ground, I have been biding my time and trying to find a horse to hold me over until I could ride her.
But then B came along.
I didn’t expect to love him so much, and I didn’t expect him to be so great for me. He may not always be the horse I want in the moment but he is definitely the horse I need to be a better rider. He also makes me so happy 99% of the time, which aren’t bad stats in this game.
But this leaves me in a kind of tricky place…
I don’t think I can do two horses. Between the time I would need, and the increased money expenditure… I just don’t know if its feasible for me.
A few months ago I was resigned to his sale and had quietly started putting the word out to people I trusted without actually advertising him.
Only to be met with a resounding “that would be a mistake” from the people I trust most.
People who know both him and me.
Professional riders who know what this sport takes.
But how can I give up my miracle baby? She can’t just sit in the paddock forever.
I have never been more confused and no decision I can make sits well with me. But with parts of Australia experiencing a second wave of COVID the decision has been (temporarily) put on hold.
Pepper is in a lock down area and I can’t get to her, and while this doesn’t make me happy I just feel so relieved I don’t have to make this decision now.
But I will, sooner or later. I just never thought this would be a problem.
Someone help me, please.